Searching

I feel that if we have a basic need,what human beings looking for.
One thing that we like to have a fun,for sure
Another one that we like to create something cool.
Third one is that we search for beauty,tranquility,evolution.

Feels like something already design this way as human being.
If we are not threaten our basic survival,we are genuinely in good nature.
But somehow we create system for better,efficient,more and more..
We enjoy all those things and same time we become victim of this system,too

Enjoy my free time for searching and believe that everything come right time and right moment.

All will be good.
Excited for uncertainty and space itself will create something cool.
I can add some good spice in it.

Good night sleep.

Quantum reality

I wonder that time does exist ? Of course it exist. Because the earth orbit around the sun and sund orbit around gallexy and we calculate as one year,month,week ,day,time and seconds.so time exist because of the movement of Stars. The star move in certain way and create flow or time and I think it is a relative. Of course we have learn from the school and books.
But if I perceive the time with emotions,what really effect my personal universe.
When I see the sunset with very euphoric state of mind,it feels like time stop and I just standing in the shore,color,beach,smell and seagull. All exist in that moment. No more craving. Just complete moment as it is. Seems like all euphoria is happening from my top of head. Some fluid flow to my brain and create very wonderful sensations and that sensations allow for me to see and feel the universe in different ways. No separation..just all that is in that moment. That's it. I am exist in that moment. Feeling it. Be one with that moment.

Zen moment. Stillness in open space within me. Spaciousness,light and feel alleviated.

This kind of experience offer that feeling of gratitude and happiness.
Happy to alive,happy to experience and happy to share it.
Create bonding,create wonderful memory through our six sensory perception.
Dance with universe and falling in love universe.

Sametime,my intelligence tell me if absolute truth is beyond duality,it should be more that euphoric stae. Because still there are persone who feel,perceive.
So whatever sensations i am experiencing,it is not absolute truth. Same time I am wonder that what is absolute truth. I see this is a flaw for our thinking mind. I think what matter is that what is a meaning for me about perfection or absolute or any words. Because any words what is use indicate something. But that indication has own limit through words. Because words has own limited perception because each person who understand the words,there experience the words is different. The way how grow up,educated,the way how think also why think in particular way. A if I think deeply,we are having a personal words depend on how we understand things through our mind. So it came to our universe is based on our perceptions. So if we have a different perceptions or understanding about universe,the universe appear different way.we can't say which universe is perfect or right,wrong or any thing. It changes..evolve and alive. Because I perceive the universe this way.smaetime it has own laws and principle. Because the earth orbit the sun whether I perceive or not. It goes on without my perceptions for eons.so I like to say so it is not everything depend on my perception. What if I don't perceive,it will exist it's own way. Someone living in Paris or England,remote island and people living there own life. Maybe everything exist its own. Our mind want to translate its own version and want to give a meaning to it. Maybe that is a beautiful things. It become art,literature,philosophy and all things. It all things connect with own principle whether we perceive or not. Qhantum physicist mention that observed universe is depending on obsever.also obsever effected by observed.

Need to ponder more.

Sublime beauty

So beautiful day .
Transparent fall light,all beautiful colors of trees,reflection,sparkling water,cheerful energy around green lake. When I see the leaves of trees,I can feel all the shape,colors,movement infused together and they vibrate and become a song. All different song,different flow of energy,different senses all caress my eyes,ears and my brain.
I feel very alleviated by beauty and I sense that all things are existing in my brain and creating so much bliss through beauty of nature.
Feels like the energy has own intelligence and if enery is up,another intelligence and new eyes shows up and through that new eyes begin to see the universe in different ways.
Ever evolving process and same time,my mind begin to reach higher and higher and want to see sublime beauty in everything.

I am in love universe and I have a secret lover and that secret lover is me.i am in love with me. Something begin to dance within me and give me so much pleasure for my own existence.

If I close my eyes,I can feel so clearly and even with open eyes,inner energy dance and swirl and reach to my brain and again dance in my brain.
If I stay with this energy,there is no worry,no anxiety and no depression at all.
I can feel so much possibilities and also become reality.

Thank you for all those beautiful moments and excited for new moment and same time I see there are only present moment and present moment unfold present moment and never ending present moment and become eternity.that eternity is in this present moment.preception,feeling,emotions,time and space all things dance together and create beautiful ecstatic dance of universe in this present moment.

Tunning in together

I enjoy spent sometime together with others.
Sometimes the people I know,sometimes the people I don't know.
We all all sisters and brothers. So if I open my mind and enjoy time together,it's all good.
Very easy to tuning into my self,but if I feel more intuitive amd navigate my intuition more,quality of time is much better.there are different quality of energy movement in us. One movement is that flow upward and another one is that flow downward. We have both and two different direction give different sensations and also pleasure. I enjoy both.
Perhaps we all do.
Sometimes I can't understand that why we all create barrier..maybe there are no barrier just I feel like that. We have survivor instinct,safety and also feel protected. Does't mean..we judge each other or evaluate from high to low. I don't like that structure that much. Because there is  no hierarchy as human. We are all same human beings but we have a different abilities. So depend on abilities,we value our self in some way.

What I like is that if we are together,there are some beautiful energy there.
Something beyond,something exciting same time mystic for unknown.

Anyway I can say I love spend time with people same time I like to spend time with my self,too

There are some comfort for spending g time with my self. Like freedom...

If I nurture what I am doing,I feel it will be alright.
I need to remind of my self that I am very magical being and beyond boundary and also the person who believe in magic and sublime beauty.

Getting cold,makes feel refresh and same time makes me remember many things from the past.

Mind long for nostalgia and nostalgia long for myself for great oneness.

Life

Life... I can only say life.
So much abundance and so many things happening in this moment.
Pandora station's French cafe and I love it.
Bottle of wine,found new animation about one boy "magi" I love it so far.
Witnessing death last Thursday and intuitive writting and yoga weekend and another 2 yoga classes this evening. Many conversations,insight and love.

Perhaps in this fleeting moment which I love it will pass away,that's why I can't help falling in love with. Many beautiful people who I met this weekend and today,all beautiful nd very grateful that I am part of that.
I have spaciousness in my mind nod have many different drawer. I can bring many different qualities.
Some drawer has full of insight and experience.
And drawer has some junk,left over and trash,another drawer has my treasure in it.
I can open any drawer what I want and if I like to shre,I can do that.
But I need to feel right.i think it's not because of I am picky but because of I value my self And I am also very precious being.

I like dancing. I don't know ..I am not good dancer in technical level but I like to express my self.
Freedom,blossoming,feeling,love and all those things expressed when I move my body and when I feel my body.

I feel that I like to feel and blossom in every level of my existence from sexual to spiritual.
Orgasm from genial to brain. I think orgasm is unique expression of human being and it contain some specters for our evolution and spirituality and blossoming of our consciousness.
I didn't study very deeply but I can feel the dynamic expression of energy in human body expressed that way. I can sense someone never experienced even gennital orgasm. I have eerie need all from he total to brain and I feel there are much more. If we feel really open noir 7 th chakra,there is a path way to connect to something beyond. I don't know exactly what I is...feels like world of light. Blossoming,different rays of light,complete bliss... Something like that. I wonder that that,s it?
 That is highest I can go ?
 If I say highest,there are much more. Because logical way to think if I say highest,I already limit, so that is not highest.  I can't say that words. Perhaps what I experience right now good enough,that is a good enough. I don't need to pursue highest..because there is no highest.

Logic collapse I present moment. Present moment contain possibilities of eternality.
Maybe this is a essence of emptiness. It contain everlasting possibilities and same time it is a empty.

Shift of identity

When I was in beriten bush hot spring,I felt I am the son of mother earth. I felt I belong to here and felt so comfortable like womb. Actually I don't remember how I was in my mother's womb but instintively I felt that I belong here.
There are emotions how we perceive our self. There are many different scene in movie,so we can't say all scene as one emotions but I can say it was good or I enjoyed and dumb....Something like that.
Overall we can say something. So if we expand our identity to bigger one,also emotions are evloving and feel more spacious and free.

Through that space,we dream,soar and enjoy all different possibilities.
Perhaps I enjoy my emotions about freedom.

I don't like the feeling about obsolete or helpless and no hope.
Perhaps that kind emotions makes me feel dying. So I am trying out the way how I feel alive and excited about life through my intuitive navigation.
I drive my life high way through my intuition,feeling and also premonition.

There are some feeling that there is much more and sametime I don't know what it is.
Feeling high,expansion or brain orgasm or something existence satisfaction ?
Maybe beyond feeling,beyond emotions and same time I don't know what lies is beyond emotions and feeling or inspirations.we are in that structure of that six senses experience.rising and down,good or bad,or angel or devil. Travel between. Living between struggle and evolution.


What is a evolutions anyway?