Life is agame but play very well

I think when things turns out very well than what I expected worse,it gave me so much mental pleasure. I think that is human basic psychology. We take a pleasure in something between outcome and expectation. Because there is a tension between and when that tension is evaporate,we call it was a good and we say it played very well. But sometime things happen and we didn't expect and prepared,so we say as tragedy. Recently lots of things are happening. Car broke down,lack of money and somehow my mind try to figure things out for living. Sometimes it feels like not pleasant but my spirit feels alive. I don't know ...maybe if I become negative things become worse. So my mind make better story to make things much better.so I like to live in some beautiful story what I like to live.
Because what I perceive is through six senses, so I can make my choice to make it for my own ways. The universe is infinite field for that exploration.

I have learn many things in many days. Not serious but sincere and play very well and you will smile in the end. Perhaps there will be another beginning but we will enjoy game of life.

Human enjoy fun.

Nothing to say

I enjoy Colin Wilson's talk and his ideas about many different topics. Sometimes I feel we are kind of same clan and same species in many ways. I like his idea about between human desperation and peak experience. Perhaps each day we all go through from desperations to peak experience and just sailing with flow of life.
Navigate through my intuition and also my interest.
My soul is looking for sublime beauty in the end also pleasure for many different level.

I think my personality is that wherever I am,I try to make it work in very best ways and not depressed about circumstances. Bring my memories,discipline,insight all necessary things come and hold together for right now.
Also I wonder if I let it go,what it will happen?
I worship the life and see so much beauty in many things and sametime require energy for that.
Maybe I am tired,want to see new evolution in me,want to find new vocabulary,new languages and create new sensations for my brain. So I feel new and again feel meaning and reason to live.

All different pieces fly and time passing by.

I feel I am on the verge of new directions and wonder I have enough power to walk continuously.

Appreciate the beauty what I enjoy.
Health,good people,bicycle,yoga,books,sky,

Maybe I am creating my own reality through many different words and make it so alive and create my inner words. Because the words create story and story create feeling,feeling give perception to life right now. If I say positive words,world seems very beautiful. If I say negative words,the world seems very negative. So,depends on what kind of vocabulary what I use,I can create my own story to tell and become my own reality. So whatever in my mind,it will become. Maybe depends on how much I concentrate. Because all different thought flying by.my words is not so complicated. So my world will not be so complicated.

Simplicity.

Searching

I feel that if we have a basic need,what human beings looking for.
One thing that we like to have a fun,for sure
Another one that we like to create something cool.
Third one is that we search for beauty,tranquility,evolution.

Feels like something already design this way as human being.
If we are not threaten our basic survival,we are genuinely in good nature.
But somehow we create system for better,efficient,more and more..
We enjoy all those things and same time we become victim of this system,too

Enjoy my free time for searching and believe that everything come right time and right moment.

All will be good.
Excited for uncertainty and space itself will create something cool.
I can add some good spice in it.

Good night sleep.

Quantum reality

I wonder that time does exist ? Of course it exist. Because the earth orbit around the sun and sund orbit around gallexy and we calculate as one year,month,week ,day,time and seconds.so time exist because of the movement of Stars. The star move in certain way and create flow or time and I think it is a relative. Of course we have learn from the school and books.
But if I perceive the time with emotions,what really effect my personal universe.
When I see the sunset with very euphoric state of mind,it feels like time stop and I just standing in the shore,color,beach,smell and seagull. All exist in that moment. No more craving. Just complete moment as it is. Seems like all euphoria is happening from my top of head. Some fluid flow to my brain and create very wonderful sensations and that sensations allow for me to see and feel the universe in different ways. No separation..just all that is in that moment. That's it. I am exist in that moment. Feeling it. Be one with that moment.

Zen moment. Stillness in open space within me. Spaciousness,light and feel alleviated.

This kind of experience offer that feeling of gratitude and happiness.
Happy to alive,happy to experience and happy to share it.
Create bonding,create wonderful memory through our six sensory perception.
Dance with universe and falling in love universe.

Sametime,my intelligence tell me if absolute truth is beyond duality,it should be more that euphoric stae. Because still there are persone who feel,perceive.
So whatever sensations i am experiencing,it is not absolute truth. Same time I am wonder that what is absolute truth. I see this is a flaw for our thinking mind. I think what matter is that what is a meaning for me about perfection or absolute or any words. Because any words what is use indicate something. But that indication has own limit through words. Because words has own limited perception because each person who understand the words,there experience the words is different. The way how grow up,educated,the way how think also why think in particular way. A if I think deeply,we are having a personal words depend on how we understand things through our mind. So it came to our universe is based on our perceptions. So if we have a different perceptions or understanding about universe,the universe appear different way.we can't say which universe is perfect or right,wrong or any thing. It changes..evolve and alive. Because I perceive the universe this way.smaetime it has own laws and principle. Because the earth orbit the sun whether I perceive or not. It goes on without my perceptions for eons.so I like to say so it is not everything depend on my perception. What if I don't perceive,it will exist it's own way. Someone living in Paris or England,remote island and people living there own life. Maybe everything exist its own. Our mind want to translate its own version and want to give a meaning to it. Maybe that is a beautiful things. It become art,literature,philosophy and all things. It all things connect with own principle whether we perceive or not. Qhantum physicist mention that observed universe is depending on obsever.also obsever effected by observed.

Need to ponder more.

Sublime beauty

So beautiful day .
Transparent fall light,all beautiful colors of trees,reflection,sparkling water,cheerful energy around green lake. When I see the leaves of trees,I can feel all the shape,colors,movement infused together and they vibrate and become a song. All different song,different flow of energy,different senses all caress my eyes,ears and my brain.
I feel very alleviated by beauty and I sense that all things are existing in my brain and creating so much bliss through beauty of nature.
Feels like the energy has own intelligence and if enery is up,another intelligence and new eyes shows up and through that new eyes begin to see the universe in different ways.
Ever evolving process and same time,my mind begin to reach higher and higher and want to see sublime beauty in everything.

I am in love universe and I have a secret lover and that secret lover is me.i am in love with me. Something begin to dance within me and give me so much pleasure for my own existence.

If I close my eyes,I can feel so clearly and even with open eyes,inner energy dance and swirl and reach to my brain and again dance in my brain.
If I stay with this energy,there is no worry,no anxiety and no depression at all.
I can feel so much possibilities and also become reality.

Thank you for all those beautiful moments and excited for new moment and same time I see there are only present moment and present moment unfold present moment and never ending present moment and become eternity.that eternity is in this present moment.preception,feeling,emotions,time and space all things dance together and create beautiful ecstatic dance of universe in this present moment.

Tunning in together

I enjoy spent sometime together with others.
Sometimes the people I know,sometimes the people I don't know.
We all all sisters and brothers. So if I open my mind and enjoy time together,it's all good.
Very easy to tuning into my self,but if I feel more intuitive amd navigate my intuition more,quality of time is much better.there are different quality of energy movement in us. One movement is that flow upward and another one is that flow downward. We have both and two different direction give different sensations and also pleasure. I enjoy both.
Perhaps we all do.
Sometimes I can't understand that why we all create barrier..maybe there are no barrier just I feel like that. We have survivor instinct,safety and also feel protected. Does't mean..we judge each other or evaluate from high to low. I don't like that structure that much. Because there is  no hierarchy as human. We are all same human beings but we have a different abilities. So depend on abilities,we value our self in some way.

What I like is that if we are together,there are some beautiful energy there.
Something beyond,something exciting same time mystic for unknown.

Anyway I can say I love spend time with people same time I like to spend time with my self,too

There are some comfort for spending g time with my self. Like freedom...

If I nurture what I am doing,I feel it will be alright.
I need to remind of my self that I am very magical being and beyond boundary and also the person who believe in magic and sublime beauty.

Getting cold,makes feel refresh and same time makes me remember many things from the past.

Mind long for nostalgia and nostalgia long for myself for great oneness.

Life

Life... I can only say life.
So much abundance and so many things happening in this moment.
Pandora station's French cafe and I love it.
Bottle of wine,found new animation about one boy "magi" I love it so far.
Witnessing death last Thursday and intuitive writting and yoga weekend and another 2 yoga classes this evening. Many conversations,insight and love.

Perhaps in this fleeting moment which I love it will pass away,that's why I can't help falling in love with. Many beautiful people who I met this weekend and today,all beautiful nd very grateful that I am part of that.
I have spaciousness in my mind nod have many different drawer. I can bring many different qualities.
Some drawer has full of insight and experience.
And drawer has some junk,left over and trash,another drawer has my treasure in it.
I can open any drawer what I want and if I like to shre,I can do that.
But I need to feel right.i think it's not because of I am picky but because of I value my self And I am also very precious being.

I like dancing. I don't know ..I am not good dancer in technical level but I like to express my self.
Freedom,blossoming,feeling,love and all those things expressed when I move my body and when I feel my body.

I feel that I like to feel and blossom in every level of my existence from sexual to spiritual.
Orgasm from genial to brain. I think orgasm is unique expression of human being and it contain some specters for our evolution and spirituality and blossoming of our consciousness.
I didn't study very deeply but I can feel the dynamic expression of energy in human body expressed that way. I can sense someone never experienced even gennital orgasm. I have eerie need all from he total to brain and I feel there are much more. If we feel really open noir 7 th chakra,there is a path way to connect to something beyond. I don't know exactly what I is...feels like world of light. Blossoming,different rays of light,complete bliss... Something like that. I wonder that that,s it?
 That is highest I can go ?
 If I say highest,there are much more. Because logical way to think if I say highest,I already limit, so that is not highest.  I can't say that words. Perhaps what I experience right now good enough,that is a good enough. I don't need to pursue highest..because there is no highest.

Logic collapse I present moment. Present moment contain possibilities of eternality.
Maybe this is a essence of emptiness. It contain everlasting possibilities and same time it is a empty.

Shift of identity

When I was in beriten bush hot spring,I felt I am the son of mother earth. I felt I belong to here and felt so comfortable like womb. Actually I don't remember how I was in my mother's womb but instintively I felt that I belong here.
There are emotions how we perceive our self. There are many different scene in movie,so we can't say all scene as one emotions but I can say it was good or I enjoyed and dumb....Something like that.
Overall we can say something. So if we expand our identity to bigger one,also emotions are evloving and feel more spacious and free.

Through that space,we dream,soar and enjoy all different possibilities.
Perhaps I enjoy my emotions about freedom.

I don't like the feeling about obsolete or helpless and no hope.
Perhaps that kind emotions makes me feel dying. So I am trying out the way how I feel alive and excited about life through my intuitive navigation.
I drive my life high way through my intuition,feeling and also premonition.

There are some feeling that there is much more and sametime I don't know what it is.
Feeling high,expansion or brain orgasm or something existence satisfaction ?
Maybe beyond feeling,beyond emotions and same time I don't know what lies is beyond emotions and feeling or inspirations.we are in that structure of that six senses experience.rising and down,good or bad,or angel or devil. Travel between. Living between struggle and evolution.


What is a evolutions anyway?

Interesting day

There are many different elements for the days.
I had very interesting day with Christian kennedymand same time struggle with money.
I am aware about it and same time it has many different effect around me.
Perhaps I have to try to make more money.

First,I have no ideas about unified field what Christian mention about.
All knowing and all possible reality in many different dimensions?
I know that we are many different muti dimensional being  and same time is it really true? Or I think it's a good to think that way because it feels better ? Or if I think about if it feels better,why we meet all those people and all different information arise ?

Something exist in abstract concept for me right now. I see just as possibilities and same time I am moving that direction and want to live like multidimensional being.
Perhaps I do through many different dreams,visions and connections.

What is a existence ?
Sensory perceptions ?

What about thought ? Can I say it exist ? What about emotions?
What about feeling? What about stuff?

All exist and same time the way how it exist is different.like solid,soft,transparent,feeling..
All existence is a impermanent. So multidimensional idea also exist,it is a impermanent,fleeting.
Idea have a life. What if idea exist as just idea. Still we can say as existence?
What if all thought,ideas,vision and thing exist. Different frequencies,different dimensions.

Need to think more about it.

New self from different perspective

I think I know myself  but maybe not.
When I perceive myself,maybe nothing special. Bit when other person perceive me,they preceive different way toe receive the way I how I perceive to myself. I think that a cool thing. Because through that recognition,we begin to understand who we really are. How universe remember you not you remember you. Many beautiful people I meet everyday,I receive so much inspiration and that makes me more me than better me. If I want to become better me,that mean the way who I am is not enough. So I wan to say. Deeper moor new me. That way feels much better.

Understanding about human suffering,make me to understand we are same boat.
Worry about family,bill,friends,emotions,relationship and all those experience we are going through.
Some way it is a very grateful to share that and sametime it is not so pleasant. Because I need to say my weak point and vulnerable point to other. Perhaps that is a my ego. Want to share cool things and awesome things.

Weal,strong,struggle,evolution,bill,freedom,new friends,old one,nostalgia,new excitement..
All different things fleeting every single day.
Looking for meaning or purpose.

So my existence is not waste and something benefit to this world. Just adding my own vibe..
Maybe it will be forgotten some point. If I calculate the populations now,it will be 6 billion people.
How many people lived so far throughout history.
Over 10000 years or many more..
Every single day people's ar born and die.

How many people passing by and new born.
We all want to be remembered,we all want to be feel important,loved and love.
All basic human nature.

Our of many billion possibilities,there are only one unique you. That is a you,that is a me.
If I understand that,there is no judgement about it.

Flow particle,flow energy,flow life...fleeting moments,we are alive.
Writing,recording like this.

Anyway I enjoy my evening doing like this.

See you tomorrow :)

Man need a man cave :)

I like my man cave.
It is a my private space for myself. It is located in basement but very quite and doesn't have any city vibrations. Feels like everything is buried under silence. I open my favorite books and begin to have my private conversations with the . Very sacred moment for real connections. What they like to search,what they found,what is a really important. I contemplate a life,history and also many different possibilities. Many different words flows out from my spacious mind and same time I long for some deeper connections with universe. Perhaps,long for love or dream or infinite possibilities or quriosities for further questions. Fleeting moments and same time I am living this fleeting moment,seeking,feeling,thinking and try to make a sense of my life. But I don't know that it make it sense. Feels like we are living organism that wherever we are we will create or adapt new environment. Maybe I give a meaning to it. I have seen so many different lives and all the life has own stories. I see one piece of their story and pretend that I know something. But I don't know anything.many people walking by,cars drove by,many different thought,loves,buildings,city,noise,business,home,homeless people,food and shelter,yoga,peace,appreciations,affections,care,emotions all those fleeting moment make our life. Life experience. Where I am...life flows,samsara,enlightened space,space hold all those life...
We are here and we exist and experience.

All fleeting pieces of thought. No answer all questions swallowed by silence.
Go back to the source and I closed my eyes. Maybe I don't like a headache. So I rather just sleep,forget about it same time in deeper eye want to be wake. The dapper eye feels tired so indulging in sleep and pleasure.

12:20 am.

Many different post cards from many different countries. I miss my friends.beautiful people..I see through their eyes in many different countries,mountains and I think I will be there in time.
Inspirations and longing.

Maybe today is enough for this.
Yoga classes,downtown Seattle,walking yard walk,enjoy sunshine,meet new people,first time and never know when I will meet them again. Precious moment.
My wife birthday,cheese cupcake,awakening of psychic power,book store,one flower,central market,soothing music...I enjoy silence now.

White space and black lines of words and dance,like to reach you through this space.
Rest... And see you in time.

There Are many different I in me.

Sometimes I wonder that feels like there are many different me inside of me.
A little child who is very excited about many things,also very old soul who likes to understand all meaning of existence and many different questions,feminine side who likes art,music,feeling.
Also feels like there are many different perspective who I have learn from so many different people.
I can bring their quality and adding into myself. So I can create my own version of others.
If I keep doing this way,I can create many different I in myself. So I can invent my self in anyway I like. But the I in physical perspective I have my own identity such as where I grow up,which country I came from,what kind of education I have and what kind of hobby I enjoy ..etc. same time my mental I is so free from all those things. I become my own vibrant being who likes to explore all possible things in universe. Perhaps I enjoy that part.

Perhaps,I enjoy this me out of all possible me.
I need to honor this me. Maybe only one experience through this me.

I don't know next one who will be like.
Circle of samsara,experiencing universe through many different form.

Where are we going ?

I wonder and wonder :)

Good things come when you have no expectations.

When things doesn't happen the way how we expect,we like to blame our self or blame others or we feel disappointed by whatever experience right that moment.
I remember so many times when I feel diapointed,energy drained and feel weak. and I begin to contemplate why is like that ? Perhaps I like to have a good time whatever I am doing right now,need to meet some kind of expectations from my mind.As you know life does't happen like that. it come exactly what you need to experience for that moment for your own evolution. it test your patience,intelligence,mindfulness and also give you rewards,too
So I realized that whenever,wherever,whatever,I will maintain my awareness in given moment and just enjoy it.if I don't see sunshine that moment,I will try to something different than sunshine. Maybe clouds shape is awesome that moment. Radio station's music feels much better or sounds of rain is a great.  My mind become more spacious than linear.If our mind become spacious,we begin to see much more and enjoy much more. much better choices,much better time with others and relax into the moment much more.If I relax into the moment more,my body feels more relaxed and begin to have more feeling of trust comes to me. So, I don't worry so much. Give my trust to universe,life and begin to experience more synchronicity and sublime beauty,too

Lots of vision and creative idea does't come from many different thought. I think it comes from higher energy and higher energy has own intelligence. That intelligence itself using our brain mechanism for express its own life through words,ideas and different forms.If you think about all those things are expression from different intelligence through our brain.So, we are act on that ideas in our life and living in it.Perhaps that's why I like to explore high energy point in earth and practice yoga,meditation and long hike in the woods.When my body absorbs that pure energy,our cell begin to vibrate more and transform to different quality of that organism. We think that Oh..this is a me,this is the way how think,the way how grow up,the way how I live and etc. but there is the way how it is. Life itself constantly flows,want to evolve in new forms or want to explore different possibilities.I feel our body,mind and emotions are tools for that new possibilities. Same time that possibilities doesn't come in easy way. It comes with struggle,resistance and rebellion.because we need to get out from what makes you feel stagnant,what we already know,what we already experienced.Every moment is a new opportunity to see or to experience abundance of life and wisdom.
I don't know where it all goes...it goes somewhere? If we evolve in every possible ways,how it looks like ?. I like to ponder that idea very much. That's why I like sify movies.Everything will be radiate from Pure love and full of wisdom? Every desire will satisfied through that evolution? we all live ever forever paradise ? Anyway,what is a paradise? I don't like to conclude something in paticular way. Because it blocks another possibilities.Or universe will repeat its own drama ?
I didn't live a quite long enough to understand what is a universal drama anyway ? It will go beyond our personal drama for sure.Maybe try to understand through my mind itself is a flaw. because univeral intelligence is beyond my comprehension.Wrestle between my mind and universe. Maybe that is a real fun.Maybe universe want some fun with you and me.That's why I am here. who Know...?

Sharing

 I am very happy to share my thought through this blogging.
This one is a new to me although I enjoy some update through face book and I feel I have more to share and sametime it's a good for me practice writting,contemplating also it allows for me to sit down and makes my mind calm.I enjoy reading in many different kind of books and understand author's thought,what people try to understand,what is the cause?,why we are here ?where we are going ? and there is a reson? There is a purpose? Or just we are one possibliliy out of infinite.
Perhaps,this kind of thinking seems not productive but I enjoy it.I think I enjoy different perspective because perspective allows for opening another possibilities. So,our thought process create another possibilities through this thought,words and sentences. Because our perception based on six senses and this six senses based on sensations,smells,visions,touch.and all those things we can describe through words and create all 3 dimensional reality through words. Words create vision with our personal projections and through this projection,we think,we understand or experience this physical world. Same time  this physical world are created through our minds,too
Our mind perceive things as nature,universe,ideas and imaginations and many more possible world,too.Also what if our mind doesn't exist,universe will exist ? If there is a no obsever,what will exist? And what is a existence anyway? When you have a deep sleep,the world exist in your dream? Or just your sleeping exist in that moment.when you wake up,your eyes begin to function,your  six senses begin to function and we know what we have to do. Make a breakfast,ready for work or normally what we do in daily basis.
Many different questions create my quriosity for further quest and seeking. Maybe I enjoy seeking,just experience of that seeking. Maybe feeling of something I am doing. I am finding something,I found something important. So I am cool or smart or awesome. So seeking result in optimal pleasure or satisfaction for myself ?
The water flow whatever the paths are there. It doesn't matter this way or that way. Staight,curves or flow underground,freeze into ice,evaporate into air. Or convert into energy. I can't say which way is better than the other. Just how it serve for you in given time and space. It will move on it's own.
My seeking maybe like that. Just flow whatever ,wherever like to go. Because life is a movement and sametime it has stillness,too . Perhaps seeking is a movement of energy.through that process we enjoy the life and maybe seeking itself is a life.i can say I am living a life through seeking.
I don't want to go on logical flow through this process. I think just want to say how my mind flow like this. May it's not only my mind but also other,too if we flow like his ,we will meet in some point together. That is exciting point. So we will meet in time soon. Doesn't matter how long will it takes. The universe will exist in every ways. Excited to meet you in time :)