Today

i was listening Davi Rymsey's talk show about how to get out financial debt. I have some and working on to payback in each month. I think if I try harder, I feel I can recover soon. Actually i didn't have proper financial education so it is very good for me to plan for future and feel more stable.
Yesterday Wes very emotional because of my current situation and also Christina's concern about me and her future. I totally get it and same time I cannot force myself. But I can be much better for future. Steady and slow and keep going where light resides.

Feel very calm now and enjoying this silence now.

Movies, books, informations, work, movement, understanding and relationship, old, past my emotions with Kathy and also future plans with Christina

And things are going and running.

I enjoy conversations with young people. Their heart is healthy and beatific. I always inspired by people's passion and enthusiasm for their directions and study. And sometimes I ask questions to myself. So well...where I am heading? Bright future or whatever work ideas. I have lived many years for my own adventure and discoveries and now i feel I need to save and stabilize my life. So that I can live life with no worries and anxiety.  Money cause many problem for me and even change my direction for in some situations. I think I am done with it. I want to feel more free and liberations. I think I will work toward, step by step. I have emergency money saved up, so I need to work on kill my credit card debt one by one. So I will be very proud of my self.

Perhaps if is sign that I am doing well and need to see each month how I am improving.

Enjoy my day off..educate my self.