my inner boy

My inner boy feel that I don't know where I need to go or take a refuge. Perhaps it will be in me yet, I feel very sad right now. Perhaps I didn't express my sorrows and anxiety enough for other person understand and same time people they don't like to hear your stories so much unless it is very important for you. Whenever I have deep conversations with C, we face same problem. where we start was not right, so her feeling about us is not right. feels like long summer romance, flame and healing between each other through lost in others. I need to ask a questions about do I really love her. Yes, I do.. I think she is the person I really liked and gave so much joy and freedom and same time I don't want to face difficult jam for her life. I love  her so much  I can make her mind comfortable in her ways. My inner boy feel very sad and same time what can I do. I can be very angry but doesn't solve anything. silence and time ...I need.